Post by buildthefarm on Jul 14, 2013 7:53:04 GMT -5
i fell back asleep for a short nap this morning and had a dream that my father and i and lenny were playing golf at lennys house. we all shot and there were extra balls on the course so i went a threw the one nearest to my ball off the green. then someone took mine and said that id moved the wrong one, and so they put my ball in a hole further away than it was and made it an impossible shot. i got mad and threw my club at the wall at lennys house. we were now inside and the golf course was gone. my father saw how angry i was and advised me to stop playing for awhile because i was upsetting lenny with my behavior. i then felt completely out of control and enraged and possessed. i was trying to hide how angry i was but i just kept walking backwards and my father was looking at me examining me, and the sky was turning stormy. then he told me that spirit has been with me since i was born (anger/rage) and i needed to calm down. so i laid down and they went outside to keep playing. then all my kids jumped on me on the couch and moved the couch and started throwing things around the room and spilled some water, and were jumping on me like they do. and i was just trying to ignore it so i could calm down but it couldnt be ignored so i got up to say something and then my mother and lennys wife mrs becky walked in and made a big deal out of me getting up in anger to discipline the kids and i was trapped between being disapproved of and having wild out of control children(which happens alot around here)